A Letter To Me From Me

Monday, October 24, 2011

Today I opened my email to lovely surprise, an email from myself. I found a website years and years ago called http://www.futureme.org/ . I sent myself a letter to be delivered on this day of this year- 5 years, 8 months, and 6 days ago. I decided to share with you the letter that my 15 year old self wrote. It's not deep. It's very simple, but it really made me think.

I wrote:
Dear Future Me,
Hey Courtney! How have you been? it's been a while...GO FIND YOUR LIFE BOOK...I'll wait...are you on the right track? Is everything going as planned?

For those of you who don't know, my Life Book is a leather bound sketch book, that I posted pictures of how I wanted my life to be: Cars I would drive, Schools I would go to, Jobs I would have, Clothes I would wear, etc. In response to this sweet letter from myself, I have decided to write back.

Dear 15 year old self,

I'm doing pretty good! I don't have to ask how you are doing, because I remember. You hate high school. You will always hate it. Your going to switch high schools after next year, and while you will improve even more academically, you will still want out as fast as possible. But enjoy these things, because these are the things you will miss: Volleyball- and being so in shape without trying, living at home- and having your bills paid in return for your presence at family functions, having all your girlfriends right up the street and being able to go whenever called.

What should you NOT do right now? Care about boys! They don't know what they want, you don't know what you want, and even if you both did, you wouldn't know how to appreciate each other, so don't waste your time. You will get hurt. More than once. Your going to survive high school, and then you are going to make a decision that is going to change your life and the plan in your life book forever. You won't regret it, but you will wish you had timed it a little bit better.

Your going to graduate number 11 in your class, and go on to college at University of Oklahoma. Don't stress so much about the grades, care more about the education, later you will wish you had. You will go to OU for a semester and then your whole world is going to change.

Your, daughter is going to be born in April, and let me tell you, she is the cutest thing I HAVE EVER SEEN! Here is a picture of her:

Her name is Caroline Jo, and she is a mini you.

After she's born, you are going to date a few people here and there. Eventually you will date someone that you kinda feel like could be THE one. He's not. So when your heart breaks after the first break up, don't worry, you will get back together. When you break up again, it's not going hurt. Your going to be confidant and sure that this is much better for you, and someone else is better for you and Caroline too. Your going to meet a lot of new people right away, and your going to do a lot of fun and exciting things you never thought you would. Enjoy them.

Caroline and you have an AMAZING relationship that you will value more than any other relationship in your life.

You will talk about her all the time, think about her all the time, shop for her... your pretty much obsessed!

She makes you laugh. That's important right now.

Caroline is going to be your motivation for everything.

So to answer your question: Is everything going according to plan? I would say yes. Nothing is going according to yours, but EVERYTHING is going according to the Lord's.

I haven't told you everything, just the highlights. So don't worry, there are still plenty of surprises! You will be very happy some days, and very unhappy others, but I can assure you that you will be happy more days than not. Just remember: when things are not going your way, it may be because something greater is in the works, and it may take you 5 years, 8 months, and 6 days to see how far you have come.

You will hear from me soon.


...and that my Dear, was all she wrote...

1 comment:

  1. I love reading your blogs!! Your such a good writer!

    Anyways, the weird thing about life is that it never seems to go as planned. For some it does, yet for myself and others that I know.. a "plan" went out the window a LONG time ago! I had plans too, but life happened.

    I truly feel that we live our lives everday and act upon what is actually presented in front of us. Such things can be an opportunity, or maybe a blessing in disguise. Maybe thats why they call it the future.. we honestly have no clue what is in store for us then!

    Have you ever drove your car to go somewhere routine.. and instead of turning left on that street, you turned right instead? Ever taken a different route just to see where it goes?

    Personally, I feel like I ALWAYS take the long way. What might be a simple plan, such as graduating high school and then fire academy, turned out to be 4 years later I finally went. Sad to say, but I just didn't have the money at the time to go!

    So to wrap this comment up that hopefully it will make you smile a little, and tell you a little bit more about me, I know life has it's moments where you wish you can go back to day 1 and start fresh. Everything that has happened in my life, and yours as well, ultimately builds your character. Character is essentially who you are, what you can do. Your strong, compassionate, beautiful, and so on.. these are tools that will help you not only get through life, but with experience as well.

    Keep your head up and your eyes open, the right opportunity will come.. just like a surfer catching a wave! We are all here for ya!



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